The Girl In My Mail

Hello, Hi, How are you?
Not so bright not so blue.

And what's your plan for tonight?
just watching TV and laugh will be alright.

I'm waiting for a girl in my mail.
I sent a request but always it seems to fail.

Looking for a rug to wear
Not just a cloth you just tear

It must have some shape or
a good-feel looking color

Coz today it comes a girl in my mail.
I'll finally receive it and it's not on sale.

And til midnight I waited for the bell rings
Nobody came, not even after the dogs stop barking.

I waited the next day and the day after
Hoping it was just late to be delivered

But I mailed back and forth,
And my hope's kinda lost.
No replying
and I'm tired of calling.

I did not receive a girl in my mail.
Forever I wished for seven years and more.

Until it ends, i dreamed
it's still there..
standing in front of my mail box.

Waiting for me to call her.
And she calls back.

Living Life

Recently I've had some time to think about what I'm doing in this life, and, in return, what life is trying to do to itself.

Some afternoon when I was riding my bike in some big road, I thought: "Wow, in this speed, if I'm lucky enough I might've
hit that huge bus and, just like that, die. It will only be in a fraction of seconds."
And then I hit the bus..

Kidding, of course I'd not hit a bus at 50 mph on purpose.

Sometimes I felt that life is just an empty wide space you've got to fill in
with a lot of new things, new colors, new sketches, new faces.

Sometimes, just like what i was thinking on that wide streets with massive trees on both sides,
life is a wandering road of tunnels, and you could reach your goal at your own pace.
You could decide whether you must hit the brake or just shift to the fifth gear and
vanish in 100 mph. The other vehicle in front of you, you can just wait patiently behind them, waiting
to pass them, or just pass them with a slight adrenaline pumping slide of acceleration.
Whether you want to feel the rush of excitement, or you just want the wind blows in your direction
is all up to you.

Of course the greatest fear in life is in crossing the road.

There's a reason people told you to always look both ways before you do.
Your life could end in split second just crossing the street, it'll require only any vehicle
driven 40-60 mph to sack you down the drain.

Let's see what you're going to face in an attempt of crossing a road that has lots of cars, bikes, buses, etc.
You step on the pavement. You feel tense because they pass you on a speed you can catch with your hand, like your life fly away before your eyes.
One slip will turn you into a road kill or a bug on some car's (truck's!) window.

Once you get pass that, if you're a good crosser (not moto-crosser) you look both ways
Just to find that either ways is just as frightening.
They're axes swinging waiting to end your life in an instant.

Then, the wait.
You wait until the road's cleared. Lucky if there's a traffic light or you have a technology called
crossing bridge that goes over the road. But in case you don't, such as many of the cases in Indonesia
you'd find it rather irritating. Time goes by as the horror keeps coming.
You try to take the first step off the pavement, and WOOOSH! A motorcycle passed by in 80 mph,
a healthy speed to run someone to their grave. And hey, that might be you! Congratulations.

One of two scenarios.
The road's cleared (Finally!) and you cross the street safely, and happily go home to your loving bed.

OR, the road hasn't cleared,and the sky's getting darker, waiting for pouring a blessful rain.
Oh no, rain and cell phone in your pocket is not a good combo. Must. Cross. Now.
And despite the fact that your brain shouting at you (It's suicide! don't! your life's still worth something, right?)
you cross the road!

speeding cars decelerate at the rate that won't be good enough to not to kill you if you collide,
horns screaming everywhere and your life swirling around you.
You say your prayer but it's too late...

you might be there or you might not.

But, as I always say before crossing a wide road full of speeding cars and bikes, and trucks and buses,

"Life is full of challenges and tests of courage or anything. If there's nothing to it, you can't call it living."

I smile,
And I cross the road...

Feel

An inkling of perspective arouse my curiosity
A wavering heart is on dismay

asking why for eternity
Wondering how every living day

Why do some guy never satisfied
with what they have,

What makes another live so selflessly for others,
do a lot of good deeds and be forgotten,

How on earth does love work anyway,
Why can some feel pain while others are laughing
and around the other way?

And in turn, people neglect other in the name of priority,
and despise other in the name of justice.

Finally, there's only one big question in your heart right now,
if you read this note thoroughly from top to bottom.

So, the question is

A Splendid Reason

In the middle of my surfing I found this as an inspiration
And it followed me through my desperation

That even you and those petty reasons
Are nothing mere than a message of revelation

I'm strong as it is
And with God's love and grace

Love is one splendid reason
to not forget you,
but not mourn you
or the loss of you.

Full Throttle!

A soothing wind blew me away
in this dessert of dismay
I called life.

A winter breeze in the hottest time in May
and I wish for a while it'd stay
And I pray

That this might continue, in sadness let there be caress
In agony, let there be strength to carry on
and in people who want to see the happiness of life,
they can see you in their eyes.

And thank God
For His belssings
This humbly be
and a love for my daughter she would agree

Run to your goals!!
Don't let the sun closed to a set before you've reached it.

Til it breaks,
Floor it full throttle!